Making mistakes at work gives me overwhelming, day-ruining anxiety. March has been rough on me and I just want to give up and hide away under my covers for a year. The anxiety is too much.
During January and February, I was alright with work. But once March came, it felt like everything I did was wrong.
That every email I got was “Megan, I’m concerned about…”. I feel like it’s so many small things that have become a mountain that can touch the sky. Today I got an email about making too many spelling errors and that I need to do better. That tipped me over the edge.
I broke down and cried.
I have been so worried that I will get fired for my dumb mistakes that this makes me feel so defeated. Do I just give up? Do I quit before I can get fired?
Whenever I’m on a shit streak in life I shutdown. I want to become a hermit that only leaves the house to let my dog outside and go grocery shopping. That I can’t make mistakes if I’m alone by myself.
The weight of my mistakes is too much. Yes, I do need to be more thoughtful about my spelling. I think it was the straw that broke the camel’s back sort of situation though. This has been building up over a month and the floodgates went flying open.
I want to do well at work, I really do. I’ve been coasting by on the little energy I have since December. I do what I can but with my eyes glazed over and head in the clouds. I feel like I’m not totally present most days so I run on cruise control without using my brain. I play through the motions, do my tasks and say my lines, but it doesn’t mean anything.
I’m not sure if it’s depression or burn out or a heaping helping of both. It’s frustrating nonetheless. I have things I want to do but have no drive or energy to do them.
I’m going to try to make April a better month!
How do you cope with mistakes at work? When you have no energy and can’t focus, how do you sort yourself out?