Anxious About the Future

Words have no power to impress the mind without the exquisite horror of their reality. – Edgar Allan Poe


This weekend will be the last free weekend for me as I head into Monday and the start of my master’s program. I am beyond ecstatic about the next two years of my life, and at the same time overly anxious.

I am ready to take on this new challenge. I was anxious about starting my bachelor’s degree, and by the time I completed that I was in the right place in my life mentally and I succeeded. It was great that despite the struggles of having a mental illness I found a way to graduate the top of my class. I know once I get into that rhythm again things will work itself out– still, there will always be doubts in my mind.


I did have some goals this summer, and while I have not conquered it all as I’d hoped, there was a lot a positive to come out of my summer. I have to move on. My goals for the remainder of the year are to refocus on publishing my memoir, getting back into the groove of school, starting a new fiction writing project, keep growing The Bipolar Writer blog and expand my freelance business. I will continue to get better at writing within my master’s program. I will be stronger, and I will share on my blog my journey.

I am embarking on an amazing jouney.

I have to be positive because there will be days where my anxiety, depression, mania, and insomnia will be fighting a war in my mind. I have to pick the battles that I know are winnable.

So here is to better days ahead.

Always Keep Fighting.


Photo Credit:

Nicole Honeywill

Trent Erwin

Peter Fogden

21 thoughts on “Anxious About the Future

  1. Pingback: Anxious About the Future – The Bipolar Writer Mental Health Blog – International Badass Activists

  2. Best wishes to you on this exciting new journey. I admire your determination to pursue new goals. I agree with you that your masters work will help hone your writing skills. I completed my masters last year. It took some time to get in the groove of the reading, research and writing, but the work was good discipline. I think it will help your book projects. Looking forward to reading more about your journey.

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  3. Hi James, I wish you all the best with your Bachelor’s degree. I am sure once the initial nerves are passed, you will enjoy your studies and if the success of this blog is anything to go by, you will do very well indeed. Just do not compare yourself to the other students and work at a pace that suits your individual needs.

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