Anxious About the Future

Words have no power to impress the mind without the exquisite horror of their reality. – Edgar Allan Poe

This weekend will be the last free weekend for me as I head into Monday and the start of my master’s program. I am beyond ecstatic about the next two years of my life, and at the same time overly anxious.

I am ready to take on this new challenge. I was anxious about starting my bachelor’s degree, and by the time I completed that I was in the right place in my life mentally and I succeeded. It was great that despite the struggles of having a mental illness I found a way to graduate the top of my class. I know once I get into that rhythm again things will work itself out– still, there will always be doubts in my mind.

I did have some goals this summer, and while I have not conquered it all as I’d hoped, there was a lot a positive to come out of my summer. I have to move on. My goals for the remainder of the year are to refocus on publishing my memoir, getting back into the groove of school, starting a new fiction writing project, keep growing The Bipolar Writer blog and expand my freelance business. I will continue to get better at writing within my master’s program. I will be stronger, and I will share on my blog my journey.

I am embarking on an amazing jouney.

I have to be positive because there will be days where my anxiety, depression, mania, and insomnia will be fighting a war in my mind. I have to pick the battles that I know are winnable.

So here is to better days ahead.

Always Keep Fighting.

James

Photo Credit:

Nicole Honeywill

Trent Erwin

Peter Fogden