**This post discusses the use of marijuana. Please do not read if you are triggered by discussions about drug use. I am not a medical professional and the below information should not replace treatment by a licensed health care provider. I also live in a state (Arizona) that has legalized medicinal marijuana. I am a… Continue reading Pot.

Babbles: Bella’s Big Adventure: Two Sleeps

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I have two nights remaining, or two sleeps, that’s the way we used to count down the days until Christmas, by the number of sleeps.  I have two sleeps until I leave for treatment. My to do list is starting to get shorter.  The pile of things to pack is getting taller.  The exhaustion is… Continue reading Babbles: Bella’s Big Adventure: Two Sleeps

Babbles: Bella’s Big Adventure: The Home Stretch

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I leave for treatment on Thursday.  It seems to have come upon us quickly in that slow agonizing kind of way.  I am the kind of person that once I have my mind made up, I am set and I am ready.  When I have to wait it is pure agony for me. I know… Continue reading Babbles: Bella’s Big Adventure: The Home Stretch

Babbles: Bella’s Big Adventure: Perspective

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The days are passing quickly.  I suspect that it is due to being so busy.  However, I feel like I am barely keeping my head above water so to speak, only getting done the bare minimum and my head is swimming with what still needs to be done before I leave for my big adventure.… Continue reading Babbles: Bella’s Big Adventure: Perspective

Babbles: Bella’s Big Adventure

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In less than two weeks I am going on an adventure.  There could be lions, tigers, or bears (oh my!~)  It was suggested that I pack light and there was a whole list of what to bring, and an even longer list of what not to bring, and I am stressing over the whole packing… Continue reading Babbles: Bella’s Big Adventure

Babbles: Patience

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When I was 18 months old, I was playing in the yard with my older brother as my mom stood at the window watching us as she washed a few dishes.  Not long into being in the yard, my brother came inside and approached my mother.  He looked up at her while she was at… Continue reading Babbles: Patience

Finally, Some Good News!

So, as many of you may already know, I have been pursuing ECT (Electro Convulsive Therapy) Treatment for about the past month or so. I am very pleased to announce that tomorrow is my very first treatment! I will be undergoing treatment for about a month, maybe less, maybe more, 3 times a week. I… Continue reading Finally, Some Good News!

Mental Illness and Cognitive Dissonance

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It’s no secret that the spectrums of mental illness come fraught with confusion, anxiety and fear, whether it be depression, bipolar disorder or schizophrenia. In some cases, the illness is the anxiety and confusion itself – a deep-set emotional displacement that has no reasonable cause behind it. There exists an endless number of factors that… Continue reading Mental Illness and Cognitive Dissonance

Dear OCD…

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Dear OCD Hi there. You’ve been a part of me for so many years. I did not realize you were with me until I officially got introduced to you in my psychiatrist’s office. I’ve been realizing how many things have started to “make sense” ever since I found out about your existence. You see OCD,… Continue reading Dear OCD…

Partial Hospitalization Program and IOP

I wrote a blog post a few months ago detailing my experience with modern day mental health hospitalization. You can read it here. It was a nightmare experience that exposed the glaring holes in America’s mental health care. Since then, I’ve enrolled in an intensive therapy program. They call it a Partial Hospitalization Program, but… Continue reading Partial Hospitalization Program and IOP