What Anger Is To Me

Please don’t tell me that a smile and your sorrow just don’t go together.

I would not look upon my anger as something foreign to me that I have to fight. I have to deal with my anger with care, with love, with tenderness, and with non-violence.

When I get angry, I have to produce awareness: “I am angry. Anger is in me. I am anger”. That is the first thing to do.

Thank you for being with me. Let us rebuild a healthy state of mind.

Angel love and rainbows.

Love, Francesca.

Music That Changes My Mood – 2019 Edition

One of the things I loved about blogging is the ability to share my experiences and love for many different things with my followers. One of those things is my love for music. I can’t imagine a world without music, and I listen to music every day of my life. One of the things that started here on The Bipolar Writer Collaborative blog was the idea of sharing music that changes my mood. This is coming at a good time as a recent bout of depression and doubts have flooded my mind of late. So here are some music that changes my mood.

The Veronicas – When It All Falls Apart
On My Own – Les Miserables
Girls Generation – Every day Love
Sara Bareilles – Brave
Rachel Platten – Fight Song
Christina Perri – A Thousand Years
Avril Lavigne – Wish You Were Here
Avril Lavigne – Keep Holding On
Girls Generation – All My Love is for You
Luke Bryan – Play It Again
The Band Perry – If I Die Young
Anna Kendrick – Cups

Always Keep Fighting

James

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Ideas for Mental Health Recovery

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One of the critical components of mental health recovery in my mind is finding the things that work to make you happy.  Over the years I have used different things to get me through the worst months of the year (my SAD months.) It differs from person to person because one person’s illness is not exactly alike, so find what works for your specific mental health recovery.

What I have found useful in my life is role-playing video games as they get me through some of the worst depression in my life. It is a way to escape the reality for a few hours and focus on something different. It gives me an opportunity to reach goals and feel good about myself when depression is taking over.

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Writing is my greatest weapon to deal with the ups and downs of my mental illness. The writing projects that I am currently working on and this blog are so helpful.

There are other things that I am working towards as we head into the final three months of 2018. I had many lofty goals this year, but there are still somethings that I would like to try out– like photography. I have talked to other artists and photographers about how therapeutic taking pictures is for their mental health. When I use video games or reading books to escape my mental illness for a few hours, it is the same for them with photography. It was one of my goals to start the year, but I got further away from it because of the cost.

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What started this blog post was one of the fellow bloggers asking me how people deal using different forms of media like books, video games, watching film, photography, and even writing. This blogger mentioned that people coping with trauma often get into horror movies and books because they connect with the genre. I can relate to this in so many ways. I got into reading Edgar Allan Poe because of the connection to the “dark romanticism” feel of his work, and his influence is in every aspect of my writing.

What I want people to get out of this post is this, there are so many ways out there to cope with mental illness, and these things are essential to finding what will help with your overall mental health.

Before starting The Bipolar Writer Collaborative blog, I was lost. I had my writing but it was not enough.

Then I started this blog and everything changed. I have used this blog to improve myself through shared experiences in mental illness, and now I am more open to sharing my experiences. I wrote my memoir because of the amazing mental illness community here on WordPress. It has been what has helped my mental health recovery. Find what helps you get through the tough times, and it will make these times less harsh. Never dwell of the negative and always move forward.

Always Keep Fighting (AKF)

James

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Mental Health Stigma’s Among College Student Minorites

This was a project that I did for a class and I meant to share a while back. It is a PowerPoint presentation with a voice over. I am not the best speaker, but I hope that you get the message and maybe some thoughts about what I talked about in this project– Mental Health Stigmas Among College Minorities.

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Always Keep Fighting

James

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Update: My Campaign to Upgrade

I wanted to make a quick update on my progress that I talked about on my blog post Sharing My Vision for The Bipolar Writer Blog. I was hoping to upgrade this time around, but it wasn’t meant to be. It was a grandiose idea. Hopefully, in the coming months, I will be able to upgrade on my own.

With that said, some fantastic fellow bloggers worked towards that goal by donating to the cause. It means the world that I could at least, for now, keep my current premium subscription going. I promised to list all those who helped make The Bipolar Writer possible. Thank-you to all the following bloggers who made a donation.

Andrick Schall

Samantha Warren

Lisa Juergens

Jessica Regn

Jamie Anderson

Florence Weaver

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Over the next year, I will continue to bring new and original content and grow the already fantastic family that is my contributor bloggers here on The Bipolar Writer blog. It is close to my one year anniversary of starting this blog, and we are just getting started. I plan on doing everything I planned with the business upgrade. I always write because I want to end the stigma surrounding mental illness. I can continue to do just that over the next year.

Always Keep Fighting

James

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Music That Changes My Mood – Part 20

When you need someone is a common theme in this mental illness life. For today’s version of music that changes my mood, I decided to list songs that help me when it gets lonely in the struggle. Music is such an amazing force in my life, and it helps get through the loneliness of being an introvert. Here are some of my favorite songs in my lonely playlist.

Courage My Love – Need Someone

Paramore – My Heart

Flyleaf – There for You

Good Charlotte – Hold On

Taylor Swift – Clean (Cover by Kina Grannis)

Paramore – The Only Exception

The Veronicas – In Another Life

The Veronicas – When It All Falls Apart

When You’re Lonely

Avril Lavigne – I’m With You

Avril Lavigne – Nobody’s Home

All Time Low – Remembering Sunday

I hope you enjoy another edition this series. You can find the entire series here:  Favorite Music

Always Keep Fighting (AKF)

James

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Members of the Same Tribe

The Update

I am in awe of the experiences of the mental illness community that I have been a part of over the past ten months of blogging on WordPress. I believe that we are all members of the same tribe with different journeys and experiences.  In my interview series alone, I have had the honor of sharing some amazing stories of individuals living in spite of their mental illness.

This summer I want to continue to share the stories here on the Bipolar Writer, and I hope to do that with enough stories to start a new book. Those that have an interview feature on The Bipolar Writer blog, I am looking to expand on those interviews with more questions. For those that are interested, please see my contact page.

For those that were interested in me guest blogging on their blog, I am still working on some articles. I made a list and will be working on that list in the coming weeks.

Let’s remember that this community, the mental illness community is only as strong if we work together to fight the stigma of mental illness. When we give mental illness a face, it means that we are fighting this together.

As always. Always Keep Fighting

James

The Start of Something New

My move is official, and I am into my new house. It is a chance for me to reset the clock on my life. It was time for something good and change. I think it will be helpful for my anxiety. One significant life-changing thing this week– the move. Then at the end of this week, I will be completing the primary goal since starting my recovery journey that I have been working on over the past four years.

I will be the first to graduate with my bachelor’s degree in my family.

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As I start this new stage of my life, a chance for something new, I wanted to reflect on how things have gone since 2010. I remember it still as if it was yesterday. I was laying in a hospital bed, the second time in two weeks. The first hospital visit was a suicide attempt where I came close to dying. I spend three days in a coma because of an overdose. If I am honest, I didn’t believe that I would wake up. I am happy to be living my life right at this moment.

It was in the second hospital visits after several seizures that I reflected on the path my life had taken from 2006-2010. It had been a life of chaos. I wanted stability. It was the first time in my life that I admitted that my life was falling apart– and I finally said “I am Bipolar” for the first time since my diagnosis in 2007.

It was there that my life started to change. I realized at that moment that for some reason, despite trying so hard, that there was something bigger going on in my life. Against the odds, according to my doctors, I survived– barely.

It has never been easy. Every day I struggle to find the balance between my life and my mental illness life. The lines are blurry between the two worlds. Since that moment I have been happy. I have been sad. I have been through depression cycles both long and short. I developed social anxiety, lived through the worst insomnia, and found a place in this world where I belong– like becoming a mental health advocate.

Just in the four years that I decided to go back to school and get my degree in creative writing so much has happened in my life. The good always outweighs the bad. I went through bleeding ulcers last year– I survived. There were so many times that giving up seemed like the perfect option– but I persevered.

I have written my memoir which has been my most significant achievement. I wrote a screenplay that featured a character that was Bipolar, and the novel version is close to completion. My favorite thing in the last four years is creating The Bipolar Writer blog and coming up with my psydonym– James Edgar Skye.

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My blog has become a place of solace and where I can be myself. Sharing my journey with you has been the highest part of my day.

My upcoming achievement is a testament that even with a mental illness you can overcome and do great things.  We can fight. I can fight. Always keep fighting because we can’t let mental illness win.

I offer this last thing before ending this blog post. Together we can fight the stigma surrounding mental illness. I challenge you to write your story. Collaborate with other mental health writers and advocates. Life is too short to let mental illness win. Above all work on your mental health first.

James

P.S. Its time to open a bottle of Jameson to celebrate this coming weekend.

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Contributor Writer’s for The Bipolar Writer Blog

I have been genuinely overwhelmed by the mental health community this month in the right way. The outpour of people willing to share a piece of their own writing that talks about mental illness on their own blog is one thing, but to allow someone like me into their lives and share pieces of their wisdom is another thing.

Mental Health Awareness month is about raising awareness about mental illness and what it means to live this life. It is never easy to share our mental health experiences. It took a lot to get to the point where I could share my most inner thoughts about my illness.

That takes me to contributor writers. It is not the first time I have offered this for The Bipolar Writer blog. So far, the people that have been a part of my blog beyond being guest writers have been a fantastic experience. What is a contributor writer? This is how it is described on WordPress.

Contributor – has no publishing or uploading capability, but can write and edit their own posts until they are published.

What this means is I add you as a blogger that has limited access to my blog. You write the posts, and you choose pictures from the library connected to my blog. I publish the pieces. As long as you keep the blog posts about mental illness topics, it is a natural process. The blog posts are your own connection to your blog. The comments go to you, not to me.

If you want to be a part of my blog, please email me at jamesedgarskye22@gmail.com

Space is limited as I only take on a certain amount of contributor writers. A moved out some contributors that no longer contribute which has made more room.

James

P.S. If you can please contribute to blog. All earned money goes to publishing my memoir. I will update the latest on my memoir later this week.

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