Back to the situation, I had a suicide plan in place, and I will not make excuses for the why, but say I was in unbearable pain, and my natural default was to turn to the one place I never thought I would go, again–suicide. Life is the way it is, and I talked myself out of the plan and reached out to someone that put me on a safety plan after a day.
Saturday I will be hosting a Zoom meeting at 2pm Pacific Standard time here in Sunny California. I will also be open to individual meetings throughout the day or in the coming weeks. Its a perfect time as we are still in shelter-in-place (with some openings in California) but my doctors are advising me to stay indoors anyway. How about it?