Paying the Bills in This Bipolar Life

Mental illness and paying the Bills

I was asked to talk about something that I thought would be a perfect blog post subject, how do you pay the bills when your mental health affects your everyday life? I think that is a great question, and a complicated one.

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Paying bill no matter what is a major part of being an adult even with a mental illness. Mental health suffers can struggle to either maintain their current jobs or to find one that will fit your mental illness. In my own journey, I have spent a good part of the last ten years unable to hold down a job or even work.

For years, my mental health kept me from working. There were days, weeks, months, and yes, even years where I was doing nothing. At times in mental illness life, we have no control over ourselves, and it is not that we want to do nothing, it is that mental illness can be debilitating and in many ways, it can be impossible to work. It can be tough to work when depression is controlling you, or your anxiety keeps you from leaving the house.

Take my social anxiety. At times when it is at its worse, it is impossible to leave my house for days or weeks at a time. It can be so scary when I am inside for weeks. When depression and my social anxiety take over all at once it is even harder to function, it is why I chose to go to school and focus on creative writing, first with my bachelor’s degree and now with my master’s degree.

Writing has become my career (I have a publisher for my book, and together we are working towards publication) but I was asked what I have done throughout the last few years to pay bills. This is hard to answer because everyone is different. For me, the last four years of freelance writing, editing, and proofreading have been what pays my bills, but it has always been feast or famine.

I am always writing. It is my life, and I believe that I will make money in the next year with my writing, but this post comes at a good time because I am looking at ways to tutor and teach using my bachelor’s degree. I would like to eventually transition to online teaching, but I have gained some experience, and so there are online options to tutor or teach in California with certain certifications or options to teach online. Right now I am working through my school for help on figuring out other avenues of revenue until my writing takes off.

It is impossible for me to say that this is the right path for you, but if writing is what you love, then do the necessary research. You could go back to school like I do, or find work in a field that you can work online. There is no perfect path because there will always be a mental illness in your life, there is no cure. But it comes down to if you are willing to work on succeeding at something if your willing to work, and if you’re not ready–then give it time. Even The Bipolar Writer has struggled in their life. It is not forever.

Always Keep Fighting


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Day 16: My Motivation of 2018 – So Far

My Motivation of 2018

It’s been a great start to my year. I am working towards small and big goals. Each day I get a chance to check off things on my list when things get done. It makes me feel good. It’s the little things in life.

My first week of school was good. It got through some early worries and though statistics can be overwhelming at times, it’s a learning process. But its something I can continue to work on. t’s only one math class I have to take for my degree, might as well soak up as much as I can. My literature class is great. I get to read short stories of amazing authors and write about it? That is the best thing a writer can do.

Last year was a tough time for me, my anxiety was out of control and I would end up in the hospital by early February. I thought for while last month that I was heading down that path again, but I have gotten back on track.

It’s the right combination of staying busy and the right dosage of Ativan each day.

I am looking toward the future, even as I continue to write my memoir. Every day is another opportunity for me to continue to work on my social anxiety and my mental health. My blog posts help me keep busy. It’s a place where I can write my thoughts. Each day I get a better understand the intricate nature of my social anxiety.


My motivations are my big goals. Finishing my Bachelor’s Degree in a few months, and starting my Masters are the biggest goals. My school work takes up a good part of my day, but scheduling my work has made me efficient. Finishing my memoir and selling my screenplay are other top goals at this moment.

 I am learning patience in all things out of my control. I am waiting for the results of the screenplay competition I entered in December. (I get the results next month.) I am waiting for an agency to pick me up, and I make sure to send out query letters each day. It’s a daily grind but considering that I am writing more each day, my struggles of 2017 seem worth it. I found myself at the end of last year, and never looked back.

My smaller goals are making my blog reach one person a day. That’s it. Share my experiences with Bipolar and help fellow bloggers grow in their own writing. I am always moving forward every day. Trying to stay afloat in this world. It’s pure focus and keeping my state of mind in the right place that keeps me motivated. I am smiling more because I am happy.

I have projects on the horizon. Freelance work. It’s going to be an expensive year, I can tell already. So I fill my day. I write new chapters in my memoir each day. I edit and proofread during the week. I make everyday count and give my self a break when things are overwhelming.

The greatest motivation is staying the course and keeping my faith. Everything I have learned in the past year has made me a stronger person. I am in such a good place. I feel good. I know I will have days where things might seem out of control. Anxiety can be hard and anything in my life can trigger a depression cycle.


When that happens I can write about it and move on. Its great to be on track every day. To have the motivation to leave the comfort of my bed and start a small journey every day. It serves the larger journey well.

What are some of your own motivations this year?

Always Keep Fighting.

J.E. Skye

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