Weekly Wrap-up 2/18 – 2/24

I love these weekly wrap-up’s because they are a good way to end my week. I will keep short this week because I am in the midst of finals. I have a quick turnaround between semesters so I am trying to finish by mid-week and then take the rest of the week off. I am close to finishing my freelance project which has been a great experience.

So this week I will list the blog posts with limited descriptions.

Publishing my Memoir

This post is just an update on my memoir. I am almost done putting the chapters together and I am narrowing down my self-publishing postings. I talk about a donation button I am adding to my blog. I am always working towards the money to self-publish.

Looking Towards the Future

In this blog post, I talk about the future. The future of my social anxiety, The Bipolar Writer blog, and my memoir. I figured this update would be good.

Life is Like a Cigarette

This blog post is by contributor writer Alan Wolfgang who talks about life and his addiction to cigarettes. In this blog post, he talks about connections to cigarettes and mental illness.

My Favorite (Bad) Coping Mechanism

This blog article was written by contributor blogger Chelsea Owens who explores her favorite (bad) coping mechanism in her life.

What Makes The Bipolar Writer Happy?

I have been dealing with some things lately related to my social anxiety that has made me feel that I could never be happy. I explore this topic in this blog post.

When your mental illness is shared without your permission

This blog post is from contributor blogger blogpostsfromthedge. In it, the author explores her experiences of when your mental illness is shared without your permission. It’s an important topic that needs to be discussed. This is a great article.

Adventures in Therapy

This blog article is from contributor blogger Perpetually Eliza, where she shares her adventures in therapy.

Ode to Depression

This blog post is an ode written by my freelance project author Terry Fisher. It’s a great one and an ode that is relatable to the people that suffer from depression in the mental illness community. It gives insight into depression.

My Sexual Abuse Story and How I Forgave My Abuser

I rebooted this from a blog ran by Joy Daehn called https://happy-thinks.com. I was truly inspired this week by this author and her story of sexual abuse. I asked the author if I could share this story on my blog and she said yes. It is a great piece.

Inside and Out

“Inside and Out” is the title of the freelance project I am working on from the author Terry Fisher. This page will be dedicated to all the odes that I share on my blog.

My Latest Adventure in Social Anxiety

In this blog post, I talk about my week in social anxiety. I am working to see what works and what are the triggers of my social anxiety. I am working on leaving my house when I can for a few hours a day that I can. This article talks about my week.

Why you always lying

This blog post is from contributor writer blogpostsfromthedge where the author discusses lying in a mental health world.

My Insomniac Life

In this blog post, I talk about Insomnia. This is the chapter from the memoir that I share when I discuss how my sleep has always been a problem in my life, and that sleep is so important to mental health.

12:15 am

This poem is a panic attack and anxiety poem I wrote. It is one of my favorite pieces.

Mental Illness Takes No Prisoners

This blog post was written by contributor blogger Alan Wolfgang about mental illness and how it can be controlling in our lives.

Social Anxiety – A Day in a Life

This is an article about anxiety/social anxiety/generalized anxiety. I wrote it to break down what is it like living with anxiety in a day.

James Edgar Skye

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My Weekly Wrap-up of the Bipolar Writer Blog

It has been a couple of weeks since writing a wrap up. With the added volume of contributor writers on my blog is it imperative to do these weekly wrap-ups. This is place to go for all the amazing posts that you can find on The Bipolar Writer Blog. These wrap-ups end my week and at the same time gives my readers a place to look back. So here we go.

What Helps Relieve Anxiety

I really enjoyed writing this blog post about the anxiety relief since I am still working on the major issues related to my social anxiety. In this post I explain what has worked for me. I am still a work in progress but these tips are quite useful.

An American’s Obsession with Korean Pop

This is a repost of one of my favorites since starting my blog. I have a real obsession with Korean Pop, so much so that I am learning to speak the language.

What is Bipolar Disorder to me?

I wrote this piece at the request of a blogger who didn’t understand what Bipolar Disorder is and what it actually means. I give my best description that I can in this blog post.

The Bipolar Writer Hasn’t been at his Best

Sometimes James Edgar Skye and The Bipolar Writer isn’t always at his best. Here I explain what that means for me. It’s a great personal post that might make its way as a chapter in my memoir.

Teaching While Bipolar

This is a great blog post from one my talented contributor writers— Perpetually Eliza. It talks about the ups and downs of teaching while Bipolar. It is an amazing piece and you should read it if you are going into the field to teaching with a mental illness.

Total Exhaustion

This blog post was written my another talented contributor writer— Tabbi. In the piece the author talks about the exhausting of living with a mental illness and having other issues. It’s a good read.

How Does Depression Affect Your Relationships

This blog post was written by another talented contributor writer— 🌸Jia Khan🌸. It explains the realities of how depression can affect your relationships. Posts such as these are really important because at some level we all want companionship to get through the tough times.

You Are Amazing

The subject matter speaks for itself in this amazing blog post by my contributor writer— Girlyshellebelle7. If you’re looking for an upbeat post when you are feeling down, look no further that the post from this talented writer.

What’s Wrong?

What’s wrong is was written by Chelsea Owens. In the post the author explores the list of favorite questions that are asked of her. It’s a great read and one that is relatable.

Are There Different Levels of Depression?

I wrote this blog post as a request from a fellow blogger for me to define if there are different levels of depression. It is a great read because I share my experiences and some of my fellow bloggers shared their own with the types of depression that I have not lived through. It is a great read if you’re looking for the levels of depression.

I don’t make promises

This post was another good one from one of my contributor writers— Blogpostsfromthedge. It talks about the realities of mental illness and not making promises. It is a great read because there is always a level of uncertainty for those of us dealing with a mental illness.

The Bipolar Writer Needs a Logo

The Mutations of Mental Health

In this blog post author CM North talks about his own journey and how there is not a cure of mental illness and how he will always identify with having a mental illness. In this post the author gives his personal thoughts about the subject.

What it’s Like to Have a Panic Attack While Driving – A Poem

I wrote this poem just this past week in the throes of one of the worst panic attacks of my life. It was bad, and I think I really captured what was going on at this time. It is a unique perspective that those who have lived through it can understand.

Tough Love

This was one of the most emotionally driven posts to ever make its way onto the Bipolar Writer under the author Catherinerunningriley. It is a really good read and I think everyone who is dealing with a mental illness should read this post.

Eve’s Interview Feature

This is another edition of my ongoing series about sharing the stories of the mental illness community. What I loved writing about Eve’s feature is that it was one of recovery and positivity despite her struggles with her illness and alcoholism. It is an amazing story.

Being Doubly Shamed in Psychosis

This was written by another of my contributor writers— Orangewallsblog. I thought got this piece a quote from the blog post would serve it well.

“There’s something strange that occurs in highly stigmatized identities: the shame of being that identity and the shame of wanting to be identified as that identity. As someone with a degree of sustained insight, it was difficult to explain how my life was being run by a bunch of lies.”

My Bad Week

It is always my goal of The Bipolar Writer to share the different sides of my mental illness. In My Bad Week I talk about how things can change so quickly after I had one of my best months in January 2018. So I wrote this honest post about my bad week.

Positivity

This another great blog post about Positivity from contributor blogger Girlyshellebelle7. It really is a great that on The Bipolar Writer we can get varying levels of posts from amazing authors. “Positivity” is another great read.

When to Ask For Help: Ideation vs Action

A great post about asking for help when you are suicidal by author Alan Wolfgang. The author really goes into detail on what you can do when you are suicidal. It is great read from one of my contributor bloggers.

That is it for this week. It has been a busy one for The Bipolar Writer and I am looking forward to what my contributor writers and what I bring in the coming week.

Always Keep Fighting

James Edgar Skye

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I’m Still Me

I wasn’t diagnosed with anything “scary” to other people until I was in my mid-20’s. They accepted the PTSD because it made sense with what I had been through. They accepted the Generalized Anxiety Disorder because they had seen me go through the attacks. They even accepted the incorrect diagnosis of “clinically depressed” because they knew that I had times of dealing with extreme depression.

But when labels of “bipolar” and “schizo-affective” were added to the list, people who had known me all their life began to see me and treat me differently. It breaks my heart. It feels like a deep cut to me that doesn’t heal. The relationships with family and friends are gone now. And the only thing that changed was a label.

They had been through the changes of moods, paranoid thoughts, fears, hallucinations, uncomfortable times, and seeing the highs and lows of it all. They had comforted me and helped me through it all. Yet, when the label was placed on it, suddenly I was a whole different person.

I’m not. I’m the exact same person! I the same person as I was before a label was added to a chart in a doctor’s office. The whole reason that label was added was so that insurance companies would pay for my medicine and treatments. I’m still me.

I still cry. I still love. I still breathe. I still hurt. I still feel. I still get excited over silly little things like getting sesame chicken after craving it for 3 days. I still love opening emails or text messages that just simply say “Have a great day. I’m thinking about you”. I still laugh when I hear a baby laugh. I still cover my eyes when I know a scary part of a horror movie is coming. I still walk my dog. I still love to cook. I still pray. I still protect the people that I love. I still act, think, feel, respond, and live life the same — well maybe a little easier.

I got a little better because I started getting the correct treatment and medicine. But suddenly others see me differently all because of a label.

In a way, I might understand. I might get it. And who knows before labels were added to me, I might have done it to others. (But I hope not.)

We need to remember to share our stories and stop hiding behind a mask pretending we are what people expect us to be labeled as. We need to allow people to see that we are the people they interact with them every day. We aren’t the people that they see in the media (who are always quick to point out that someone had a mental illness when they do something horrible). We need to show them that the books, movies, and television shows don’t tell the full stories.

We are still human. We still feel. And most importantly we still need to be seen and have the chance to be loved.

Tabbi

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Meet the Bear Named Panic Attack

Having several mental health diagnoses can make daily life a bit of a struggle. Adding stress to daily life can cause a number of issues such as panic and anxiety attacks. When my grandfather suddenly died a week after finding a small spot of cancer in his throat, I spent time with my grandmother to help her adjust to not being alone.

However, the added stress of his passing, being away from my home and comfort zone, and several other factors during that winter caused me to have extreme panic attacks. I dealt with them the best way that I knew how. I tried not to let her see me in my worst states in hopes of keeping her calmer.

One morning as we were sipping coffee and watching the snow fall, she asked what a panic attack felt like to me. We are from the country. This is how I explained:

Imagine yourself walking alone a trail in the woods alone. You are a good distance from the house, but you can see it still. You glance over your shoulder and back to suddenly face the largest bear that you have ever seen. He’s standing on his back legs with arms spread. You see his claws and his teeth. You know he’s in an attack position.

Now think about how your body is responding. Your breathing changes to a more rapid speed. Your heart rate increases. Your palms become sweaty. Your thoughts begin to race as you try to decide the best way to handle this. Do you run? There’s no way you can outrun him. Do you climb a tree? No. He climbs too. Do you stand there in fear? Do you scream? Do you remember what you are supposed to do? You are full of fear. You feel frozen. You feel like you are paralyzed and can’t move while your breathing and heart rate continues to change. You feel sick at your stomach. You don’t know what to do. You just want it to stop. You just want to wake up from this nightmare. You don’t feel like this moment will never pass. You feel like you are about to die.

Now remove the bear and the woods. You are safe in your house. The doors are locked. Everything is calm. There is nothing around you to harm you in any way. Yet your body and mind still have the same response as if you were facing that bear. Now what do you do?

She looked at me as if she had seen me for the first time. She told me that she never knew what I went through and asked for me to help her learn things that she could do to help me in these situations.

For me, it is hard for anyone else to help. Moving my body such as shaking my arms, trying to slow down my breathing, changing small things such as lighting and music in the room, and reassuring myself that I’m safe are things that help.

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