I have a fairly normal outlook on the world:-someone’s late coming home …so he must be dead or kidnapped.-that person didn’t smile at me …she hates me.-the warning light came on in the car …it will blow up before the next stoplight.-I feel somewhat sick …yes, Google, it must be cancer. What? That’s normal, right?… Continue reading Is It Anxiety? Tips and Tricks to Recognize Signs of Anxiety, and To Deal With Them
Funny thing I notice about Fear. He’s big and bad and burly while he’s at home lurking in my what-ifs and what-mights. He pokes at my stomach until I’m nauseous. He pounds on my chest until I can’t breathe. He shakes me and rattles me until I’m dizzy. He yells at me until I’ve relived… Continue reading Fear is a Coward
Every five minutes or so over the PA, they remind us that social distancing is encouraged and to only grab the items that you wish to buy. The process is slow as you wait for people to leave an aisle so that you can go down and pick your items.
I am not blaming everything on the virus. In truth, I am to blame for allowing fear, which I have talked about in the past, from taking over my life. Last week it culminated for the first time since 2019 that I had terrible stomach issues. The weekend I had to tone things down and change my diet (which included once again giving up coffee), and I had to de-stress my life.
Stressing yourself out will only end badly. There was some positive to yesterday’s excursion into the social media world. I saw some fantastic food that people are cooking. For me, I will be focused on school and writing for the rest of the week, staying away from the temptation to continue to stress myself out. Stay safe out there in this crazy world of isolation.
My official diagnosis when it comes to anxiety is social anxiety and panic disorder. Right now, I am dealing with anxiety in several ways. I take a benzo, clonazepam, and I do other things that help me cope with my anxiety like breathing techniques, meditation, and writing. My ultimate de-stressor. I have not had a large number of panic attacks per week when things are good, but lately, I have dealt with them more.
Social anxiety presents itself in a variety of forms for different people and can be perceived by others in a lot of negative ways. Last week I got called out by a coworker for rarely speaking to the employees on the first floor. My desk is in the basement along with 3 other workspaces that… Continue reading “You Can Talk to Us”: Social Anxiety at Work
Today was the peak of my anxious December. Each day I have been getting more and more anxious, little things add up to become huge issues in my head. A week ago I was nearly in tears because I was overwhelmed by anxiety. I often feel like I need to have a perfectly spotless house.… Continue reading I Need to Call My Therapist
Starting a new job can be challenging for anyone but when mental illness is tossed into the mix, things can be even more difficult. I am about to start the fourth week at my new job which involves doing marketing for a local charity. Of course during my first week I was nervous, you never… Continue reading Social Anxiety and Me
Sorry I haven’t been so active here on the Bipolar Writer as I normally am. My life has been so out of whack that I can’t seem to find balance. I have been coping with this imbalance by binge eating/overeating on a regular basis. Once I open my mouth, I have no idea when I… Continue reading Searching for Balance