I have never been hospitalized before. I think that I am pretty good at hiding things, but I couldn’t hide this from myself. I knew there was something wrong. I wasn’t sleeping more than a couple hours, I was becoming emotionally abusive, and I was falling back into overspending. Mania. This isn’t the first time… Continue reading My First Time.
I got a rare glimpse yesterday of the reality of what it is like when I forget to put my mask on and use my CPAP (Continuous Positive Airway Pressure) machine to treat me sleep apnea. For those who are not in the know or have not seen the blog posts from late 2019, I… Continue reading What Happens When I Forget to Use my CPAP Machine?
I’m having a very difficult day today. My anxiety levels are high while my depression is begging for me to crawl into bed where I can fall apart. Since my iPhone woke me up this morning I have wanted to go back to sleep. I considered not getting up, to call in sick so that… Continue reading Encouraging Myself Before I Snap
When I first started on meds last July, I spent hours on google looking at online forums on how bad side effects could be with antidepressants. I was terrified that I get the worst combination of side effects that it would make my symptoms even worse. Thankfully, the only true symptom I started to develop… Continue reading Scary side effects
Sometime over the past couple months I just gave up. I stopped showering as often, stopped answering calls and texts from my family, and stopped going to class. If it wasn’t for bills, I might have stopped going to work. My bedroom floor is covered in clothes, both clean and dirty. I interact with… Continue reading All I Need Is A Little Help From My People.
My Mental Health and Personal Goals 2019 Edition It is that time of year when we begin anew and make goals and resolutions that we hope to keep in the new year. Happy New Year The Bipolar Writer Collaborative blog family!!! 2019 is going to be a good year. We can put the struggles of… Continue reading 2019 Goals for The Bipolar Writer
A Mental Health Anniversary – Part Two It All Starts With Hope * I know that this piece was supposed to go live on Thanksgiving. I apologize for that, here is the link to the first piece. A Mental Health Anniversary – 11 Years Later Part One Hope. You didn’t have a lot of this… Continue reading A Mental Health Anniversary – 11 Years Later – Part Two