30. Thirty. The big 3-0. I want to mark this time. (peep that pic of me celebrating graduation in late May) If you would have asked 20 year old me what the next 10 years held…she would have thought that it sounded scary and wonderful, but it could never be her. She blamed everyone for… Continue reading Thirty.
I am not an outwardly emotional person. Behind closed doors, I spill it all. If you asked my mom or friends, they would never describe me as boy crazy. I had plenty of crushes but I just am very mindful of how I present myself. I think this is why, when I get into the… Continue reading Exploding With Emotion.
Canceling plans and not showing up to things when I say I will has been a constant in my life recently. I am falling back into depression which makes me want to stay home all of the time. Day to day activities like going to work have been very challenging. Yesterday I couldn’t make it… Continue reading Depression Makes Me Flaky
Please don’t tell me that a smile and your sorrow just don’t go together. I would not look upon my anger as something foreign to me that I have to fight. I have to deal with my anger with care, with love, with tenderness, and with non-violence. When I get angry, I have to produce… Continue reading What Anger Is To Me
At the beginning of the year my number one goal was for me to work on healing myself from the inside out. I had put my own inner healing on hold for a long time. I had pushed down the most painful memories of my childhood in hopes I would never have to think about… Continue reading My Healing Journey
Over the years I’ve become extremely good at hiding my emotions from others. I grew up with the belief that sadness & tears made me weak so I did my best to never cry in front of people. I believed that my problems didn’t matter because out there in the world there was someone else… Continue reading No Longer Hiding my Emotions
“There is no light without shadow and no psychic wholeness without imperfection.” – Carl Jung This last month I stumbled upon something new called shadow work. It was something I’ve never heard of before and it intrigued me. Shadow work is when you take a closer look within yourself at the parts of yourself that… Continue reading Confronting Your Shadow Self
Sometimes, life gives you lemons. At other times, it throws them at you. Really, really hard. Especially if you’re not looking. In one moment, you might think you’ve got everything under control: Job = secure Bills = paid Clothes = washed Social life = uhhh…work in progress Prescription = filled And in the next moment…pure… Continue reading Ain’t No Mountain High Enough
I am making moves towards my next goal of moving back home after moving out of state a year ago. I applied and applied for jobs until I finally found something that would suit me. I felt immediate relief in signing the offer letter. I know it was the right choice. It isn’t because I… Continue reading Running Towards Hugs.
This is a new rendition of a poem I wrote on my blog. The Silent Sands of Illness Spheres be fed the blackened beast, For long to fill his gluttonous feast. Not life itself could escape it’s grasp. For death to all the plague they clasp. Yet random the beast, it toyed it’s prey, Amused… Continue reading The Silent Sands of Illness