Its That Time of Year

What is something in your life that you feel passionate about outside of things like writing (my greatest passion), or if it is writing, what are some of the metaphors you take from writing? Leave your comments below. I would love to hear about it!

It is that time of the year–baseball. Yes, it is only the beginning of Spring Training, but I love baseball.

When I say that baseball and watching my favorite team, the Los Angeles Dodgers, is one of the things that helped save me, I mean it in that without baseball, I might not be here. That might be a bit over the top, it is not the only reason, there are many why I am here today, but in truth, it was something that became major in my life. It will always be from February to October, the sport I turn to when things in my life are too depressive or anxious.

I get excited for this time of year because baseball is such a mood booster for me. I get to watch for three or so hours the one sport outside of basketball and college football I follow throughout the season. Baseball is amazing. You can be the best baseball player on the planet and have a bad night, and then the next day, the player comes back and hits three homers. Baseball is a metaphor for how things go in my own life. The ups and downs, the highs and lows of a baseball season are magnified because they play 162 games a season.

The fact that even the player with the least experience can change the trajectory of a game. Even the best players can have long cold streaks, likened to how depression cycles can be like having cold streaks, and yet they can also break out of a slump. That is a metaphor for how depression cycles feel after it controls you, and you break free. It is why my love for baseball is something I love to share with the world. I even wrote a chapter of it in my memoir.

What is something in your life that you feel passionate about outside of things like writing (my greatest passion), or if it is writing, what are some of the metaphors you take from writing? Leave your comments below. I would love to hear about it!

Always Keep Fighting

James

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2019

2019 has been a year of growth and challenges.

But I can never blame myself for wanting to live.

Everything is teaching me something.
As long as I’m open and willing to learn.

Everyone comes into this world being enough. I am enough. đź’«

Here is to 2020.

Thank you for being with me.
Angel Love and Blessings.

Love, Francesca.

My Love for Baseball

This is a particularly favorite chapter in my memoir because the subject matter is something that is near to heart—my love for the sport of baseball. With the start of the regular season just under two weeks away, I wanted to once again share this short chapter in my memoir.

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Baseball is the most amazing sport for someone like me that has a mental illness. I love what the game of baseball teaches you. You could be the best pitcher in the game, dominating at every aspect of throwing a baseball, and still give up four home runs in a game. The game of baseball can be unforgiving, much like living with a mental illness. It is no wonder that during the Spring, Summer, and early fall baseball is my goto when I need to get away from the daily struggles of life.

The spectacle that is baseball where every 90 feet is important to me. I love the game of baseball because it is pure. Anything can happen on a baseball field. A team can hit four home runs one night, and get shutout the next. Every player is important to the team.

For three hours almost every day I get to enjoy a game I love. On those rare occasions I find myself in a baseball stadium, it is visceral experience.

Sure, I suffer from social anxiety, and it has been years since I caught a game live there is nothing more my speed than a baseball stadium. The smell of the grass. The taste of a hotdog and a soda. The sound of the bat making contact with the ball. Even the energy of the crowd is an amazing thing to behold.

It’s amazing the ups and downs of a baseball season can teach you. Even if your team has one of the best records in baseball, it’s not for sure you will make the World Series. If you somehow your team makes it to the fall classic, anything can happen and your team might lose. You can be the most successful baseball player on the planet, but if your team is not great, you still have to play every day. Baseball really is a team sport because you need all nine guys playing their position in the field of play.

My favorite stories are players no team wanted coming to your team and becoming a superstar. On any given night, a baseball player can be the walk-off hero from the star player down to the guys on the bench. Watching baseball is one of the things that has helped me over the course of spring and summer months with my depression and anxiety.

 I still don’t understand how watching baseball makes me feel good inside and out for a few hours out of my day. It relaxes me, even when my team is doing bad, it doesn’t cause me to get overly anxious. I get so lost in the game of baseball all summer. For any of my social media accounts, be prepared to be overloaded with baseball talk from March to October.

I doubt my love for America’s past time will ever go away, and for a good portion of my year baseball will always be there for me with another game for me to watch and to cheer for my favorite team, the Los Angeles Dodgers.

Always Keep Fighting

James

The Bipolar Writer Needs Help… Again

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So, my goal is $300. The cost to upgrade. If 100 people donate 3 dollars, I can reach my goal quickly (the donation button is below through PayPal.) I am going to try and keep this post going all weekend in hopes that I reach my goal. Please, if you can help it would be amazing, and if you can’t, I understand. I haven’t done one of these in a while, so here it goes!

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Always Keep Fighting & Thank You

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For the Love of Baseball – Part Two

My Love for the Game of Baseball

My favorite time of the year started on Friday, the start of Spring training and the 2018 baseball season. I love baseball more than any other sport I watch. For almost eight months out of the year, I get to see where my favorite baseball team— the Los Angeles Dodgers— end up. I love the game of baseball because it is so pure. It has helped me keep my depression and anxiety at bay in the spring, summer, and early fall months. I can feel so much peace and serenity when I am watching the game I love.

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You can find the first post about my love for baseball here.

You can be the best pitcher on the planet, like my favorite pitcher of all time Clayton Kershaw, and have a bad game. Yet you can always bounce back the next outing and dominate with ten strikeouts. I can relate to the ups and downs of a 162 season. I have my own ups and downs. It helps so much at the end of my day to watch my favorite team hit the field for three hours playing the game I love.

A baseball season is about triumphs through struggles. You can be the best team in the league for most of a season and then struggle in September. Only to bounce back in October and be one game away from winning the World Series. Baseball is the perfect metaphor for my life.

In my mind, it is why the connection with the game of baseball is so written in my DNA. I am the same way every year. At the start of the season, I buy my MBL.tv package. The cool thing the past two years is that I can narrow my package down to my favorite team. Even better is that being a college student I get more of a discount. I knew being a student would be helpful one of these days.

I am so happy that baseball is back because the game is pure. It teaches you that no matter the struggle you can still be the best you can most days. Life is never perfect, and while real life isn’t always in wins and losses, in some ways it is that way. No matter if we mean to or not our wins and losses in this mental illness life matter. I have had years where my losses have outweighed my wins.

I got better and my wins and losses over the past few years have been much better. Much like the long baseball season, I am ready for the long haul in 2018. Baseball will be my go to over the next eight months to get me through anything.

I truly love the game of baseball. Go Dodgers!

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Always Keep Fighting.

J.E. Skye

Photo Credit: Facebook, Dodgers Low Down

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Looking for Contributors for The Bipolar Writer Blog

I am still looking for contributor writers.

The Bipolar Writer Mental Health Blog

Since day one of the inception of The Bipolar Writer blog I had a plan of how things were going to go on my blog. When I hit 2,000 followers the plan was to start a series of interviews of other members of the mental illness community. It was amazing to finally start my interview series where I feature the stories of others. It’s been successful so far.

I am close to another milestone for my blog and I am looking towards the future of my blog as I near 3,000 followers. I am looking to add contributors to blog. These contributors roles are as follows according to WordPress:

Contributor – has no publishing or uploading capability, but can write and edit their own posts until they are published.

I am only looking for guest writers at this moment. What I do is add you to my blog as a…

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My Weekly Wrap-up 11/27 – 12/3

It’s been an interesting week for me. I went through a panic attack almost every night this week, My anxiety is at high levels, I saw my psychiatrist with a positive outcome, I continue to have issues with my computer, I found a faculty member at my school to sponsor my screenplay for a student screenwriting competition, and I am looking at alternatives to combat my anxiety with a service dog.

All in all its been a week to remember, and I’d rather forget some of the moments. So let’s look back at the week and what this blog had to offer.

My Third Honest Post

At the start of this week I wrote a new journal piece that is a part of a series entitled My Third Honest Post. In this piece, I explored what I have learned since starting my blog over three months ago, and I thanked all the people that have made The Bipolar Writer possible.

Overload

In this blog piece, I analyzed some great information about the causes of my social anxiety tied to overloading myself with school and my writing. In this piece I compare last year at this time and how similar my issues now parallel the present. I really focused on the “why” in this piece.

An American’s Obsession with Korean Pop

Okay, technically this piece wasn’t written this week but it was a fun one to write so I wanted to share it. I am a huge fan of Korean Pop and I am learning Korean as my New Years resolution.

How I Write When Things get Muddled

It’s interesting that I was able to write so much considering my anxiety levels this week, but this was piece was special to write about because I talk about how, when I am deep into the darkness of my depression, it is imperative for me to keep writing. Even when things are muddled in my mind.

How Social Anxiety is Changing my Life

Social anxiety is a major issue in my life and one that, over the last two years, has really kept me from doing the things I love like going to a movie or just being in the general public. Not leaving my house in the winter time has been a common theme, one that I need to work on in the coming year.

Light in all the Darkness

This post was after my appointment with my psychiatrist in which I had little faith in the time leading up to the appointment. But I put my faith in a higher power and everything turned out okay. Sometimes light gets through the darkness.

My Love for the Game of Baseball

This was just a fun blog post about my love for baseball. I am not all about doom and gloom with my anxiety and depression. There are other sides of who James is as a person.

My Last Suicide

This blog piece opens up about my last suicide attempt in 2010. I talk about different aspect of this last suicide attempt including my “for the last time” moments. Suicide is always a hard subject to write about but I do feel better afterward. I did mention in this post that I thought suicide was a selfish choice, but to clarify I mostly mean in my own life. I still stand by that statement, it is selfish to leave behind people that love you, only my opinion.

My Thoughts on Group Therapy

I wrote this as an opinion blog piece and I was surprised at the number of people that agreed with me about how group therapy just isn’t for them. I also had a few people praise group. I think its a decision we all have to make in the end.

So that is my week in review. A lot of great information was shared this week even with all my struggles.

I wanted to end with a note for all of my followers who have donated towards my new computer. Thank you so much! It means the world to me. I am still short of my goal but I am working hard to reach that goal. If you can help me, you are amazing. The link is below. If you can’t, I hope you can still enjoy what I have to offer on my blog.

Here’s to a great week for my fellow bloggers!

Always Keep Fighting.

J.E. Skye

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My Love for the Game of Baseball

I can’t believe its already December. We are just 31 days until 2018. I wanted to talk about a subject that is near and dear to me.

I love baseball.

Baseball is an amazing sport. You could be the best pitcher in the game, dominating at every aspect of throwing a baseball, and still give up four home runs in a game.

The spectacle that is baseball where every 90 feet is important. I love the game of baseball because it is pure. Anything can happen on a baseball field. A team can hit four home runs one night, and get shutout the next. Every player is important to the team.

For three hours every day in the spring, summer and into October, I get to enjoy a game I love to watch.

It’s amazing the ups and downs of a ​baseball season can teach you. Even if your team has one of the best records in baseball, it’s not for sure you will make the World Series. And if you do, anything can happen and you might lose. You can be the most successful baseball player on the planet, but if your team is not great, you still have to play every day. Baseball really is a team sport because you need all nine guys playing their position in the outfield.

My favorite stories are players no team wanted coming to your team and becoming a superstar.

On any given night, a baseball player can be the walk-off hero from the star player down to the guys on the bench. Watching baseball is one of the things that has helped me over the course of spring and summer months with my depression and anxiety. I still don’t understand how watching baseball makes me feel good. It relaxes me, even when my team is doing bad, it doesn’t cause me to get overly anxious. I get so lost in the game of baseball all summer.

For any of my followers that follow me on Twitter, be prepared to be overloaded with baseball tweets from March to October.

I doubt my love for America’s past time will ever go away, and for a good portion of my year baseball will always be there for me with another game for me to watch and to cheer for my favorite team, the Los Angeles Dodgers.

Always Keep Fighting.

J.E. Skye

Photo Credit: Sasha • Instagram.com/sanfrancisco