Happy Healthy Holidays

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Lots of wishes float around this time of year. Lists are jam packed with material goods, gadgets and toys people covet. Well wishes also abound as folks entreat each other to celebrate all of the holidays that fall in December. In that spirit, I want to wish all of us in this community a Healthy… Continue reading Happy Healthy Holidays

Spend a WHOLE day on the Couch with ME

What happens when you beat to the tune of a different drum? What happens when all that you think and all that you do was changed in one moment in time? What happens when its not just that moment, but all the moments that led up to this moment that you only just now put… Continue reading Spend a WHOLE day on the Couch with ME

My First Time.

I have never been hospitalized before. I think that I am pretty good at hiding things, but I couldn’t hide this from myself. I knew there was something wrong. I wasn’t sleeping more than a couple hours, I was becoming emotionally abusive, and I was falling back into overspending. Mania. This isn’t the first time… Continue reading My First Time.

People Will Move On

People will move on. Even when you treat them like gold. Even when you truly care about them and they truly care about you. And there’s nothing you can do to stop them. Nor should you. Thank you for being with me. Let us rebuild a healthy state of mine. Sending you Angel Love and… Continue reading People Will Move On

When Your Heart Is Breaking

I drove to school this morning listening to  a Rachmaninoff piano concerto while taking in a breathtaking orange-red sunrise over the Eastern Cape veld. As always, the 35 minute drive allowed my thoughts to wander. I was thinking about gifts. Blessings. Questions with no answers. Faith. What we believe to be true about God. The… Continue reading When Your Heart Is Breaking

Confusion.

In my eyes, meditation is just a time to clear the mind, reflect, and manifest positive things. I do not feel comfortable in summoning spirits. I simply want another way to grow as a person while still maintaining my Christian faith. I have some form of stemming where I consistently rub my hands. It is… Continue reading Confusion.

Clarity.

This is a two part post: The next part is scheduled to be posted tomorrow. I want to start off by saying that I voluntarily see my psych doc weekly because I need a lot of accountability regarding my medication. It is a personal choice and in no way does it reflect my dedication to… Continue reading Clarity.

Thirty.

30. Thirty. The big 3-0. I want to mark this time. (peep that pic of me celebrating graduation in late May) If you would have asked 20 year old me what the next 10 years held…she would have thought that it sounded scary and wonderful, but it could never be her. She blamed everyone for… Continue reading Thirty.

Unicorns.

In all my time of seeing mental health professionals, I cannot recall any of them simply saying, ” I can help you”. I have had many treatment plans, some successful and some not, but never someone who just came out and said that. Dawn did. She is my new therapist. And she is a unicorn.… Continue reading Unicorns.