When I thought life is crazy. It’s getting crazier

Hello and welcome back! If you miss me too much. You can find me here! And my last post here was a poem called letter to myself.

Now today, I have been staring at the screen of my laptop for some time. I just finished working on a big project for school. One deadline less, but still much more work to do. But my tiredness and chronic lack of sleep are catching up to me. Yeah my normal sleep is around 4 hours (maximum), and an adult should at least get 8 hours sleep. Anyway I wanted to share a little update about my life, and my juggling with everything. Let dig into it! Anyone else craving some ice cream ;). Just kidding, now time to get serious.

Panick attack

A couple of weeks I had a panick attack and after that panick attack I had a full force anxiety attack. Which was no fun for 2 weeks. Took me so long to feel a little better. But it always gets better. Here is a short list with things I do to stimulate some positive change. I hope this list might be something that can also help you.

  • Sleep, lots of sleep.
  • Only listen to calm positive music/TV
  • A step back from social media
  • Spend time with the people I care about, and they care about me.
  • I try not to be too hard on myself in those recovery days. (I want things to be perfect so this is always a hard one)
  • Make art (I draw) or just write it all down. Just to get it all out of my system all the emotions.

School stress

This semester I am under a lot of stress, to get all my deadlines finished. There was one group project that turned into an eye sore. Due to the fact that my group mates dropped out of school. So now this super big project I have to finish alone.. yeah sometimes it just feels like life likes to stab me in the back. Anyway so far I’m surviving it alone and I’m going to finish it. (Trying to motivate myself)

I am micro managing my time, since there is lots to get done. I have to make the best out of every day. Heck my art time is planned in.

Wedding planning

Some of you might know this, but I’m getting married. And that means a lot of extra stress and work. It’s getting better lately, since almost all of the inventions are send. But it is not done yet.

If you have any tips about how to juggle everything at the same time. Your advice is always welcome.

This is a little bit in short everything that has been happening in my life. I love to hear your story and maybe any advice you have on any of the topics. I want to end this blog with one of my favorite quotes.

If we had no winter, spring wouldn’t be so pleasant.


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Letter to myself

Hello and welcome to this blog. I want to give a little warning, in this blog I will share a poem I have made about a letter to myself of my past. And this could trigger anxiety, depression, and suicide for those who are easily triggered. This poem is about my past and things I have personally been gone through and for that I hope you guys can respect that. I would love to hear your thoughts/story/emotions about this topic. And I want to make one thing very clear. No matter who you are and what you have gone through you are worth fighting for and be the best and most beautiful version of yourself. Because beauty shines from inside out.

Now please enjoy the poem. For more blogs made by me: prettyrose177

Dear me

Dear me,
Life is not easy, nor will ever be.
You are a fighter and a survivor.
And worthy of love
and to revive her.

Dear me,
Sticks and stones can’t and will not break your bones.
Life will get you down,
They will get you down.
They will call you names like ugly and fat.
Just your life is so much more than that.

Dear me,
They might break you.
They might haunt your dreams.
And they will go to extremes.
Just don’t give up.
You are worthy of love.

Dear me,
Don’t let the anxiety killing me.
Dear me,
Don’t let them control me.

Dear me,
You can save a life
Just throw away that knife.
A knife of pain and suffering
And all the illness it will bring.

Dear me,
I will fight for you,
I will love you,
I will take care of you.
Just don’t give up hope.

Dear me,
Let your light shine.
Let them see,
Who you are and mend to be.

Dear me,
Show them they won’t control you
Show them you are stronger than ever before.
And that you have a lot more strength in store.

Dear me,
You are loved.
Dear me,
Your angels watch from above.

Wedding dress shopping

Hello and welcome to my blog. It has been a while since I wrote something here. That’s just because I wanted to write my next blog about my stressful wedding dress shopping. Now I won’t talk about all kinds of dresses and girly stuff. I want to tell you more about my experience and just what I learned in the process.

Now let’s go into this!

First shop

Not really knowing what to expect from this. I went to a shop close by. A 30 minutes drive. This was after long research online, since I do not have a budget for like an expensive dress.

This first shop, first look, looked good and good quality for the price. This shop was a wedding dress outlet.

My mom and I went inside and we were greeted nicely and so far everything went alright. Then I could pick the dresses I liked. Then we went into dress fitting. And now the nightmare starts. I am plus size and I found out that with dress shopping you have to add 2 sizes to your normal size, at least. And so a lot of dresses were either too big or too small. And well that was really stressful.

other shops

In the end, I ended up going to two other shops. And the second one was also a nightmare, nothing really fitted. And this was really hard for my self-confidence. That even tho I am not a size small there wasn’t much out there for me.

Now the last shop, it was an eye-opener. I had a couple of panic attacks about my dress and the fact that nothing fitted me. It was turning in a big horror experience. The last shop, I found my dress. Which turned the situation upside down.

What I have learned

That no matter what size I have I am beautiful. That disappointment is part of life and it shouldn’t control me the way that it did. Now there is something really beautiful about planning a wedding and many beautiful moments. But damn, what stress is it also. I think sometimes it is too much all that stress. But those moments I am trying to image the finish line, which I am working towards.

This is it about my dress shop experience. Now if you have any questions about me, the wedding plans or the way I cope with the stress. Feel free to ask. I also love to hear about your experience and tips and tricks.

I hope to see you next time, by a new blog.


Crazy announcement

Hello and welcome, to a new blog by me.  If you want to read more blogs I make you can check out my personal blog, I post 3 days in the week a blog. My blog is called: PrettyRose. Recently I did a mini blog series about anxiety disorders and different treatments that exits.


Also, I promised to share some exciting news here. I AM ENGAGED!!!!!! Since you probably don’t know a single thing about me. I am in an almost 5-year long relationship since I was almost 15. Right now I am 19 (to help you count). Which I know is young to get married in the normal culture. But well it is my choice. (This is a whole different story).

Anyway, since that happened people won’t stop asking about it. Like even after the first-day people wanted to know the date. and getting married is expensive when you’re both studying. And well I have made a long list for myself of things that need to be taken care of. And this had increased my anxiety levels in the past days. So I thought, in this blog, I can like to write about this. The anxiety and stress for getting everything ready and just my whole experience. Believe me, it is already stressful, and it is not even a week ago since the engagement.

Now for this blog serie, I would love to know your story and any wisdom you have for me. And I might incorporate this in my blogs. So I NEED YOUR HELP! You can comment down in this blog with your story and experience, but also any tips and tricks you have in this matter.

Also, tell me if you want to know more about my relationship and some of the struggle I have overcome.

This is a short blog, but this is more of an announcement.

You will hear more from me, very soon.



Christmas blues and 15 fun ideas.

Hello and welcome back!! My last blog here was stress detox. And if you miss me here in the meantime. I have 3 blogs each week on my personal blog.  In this blog is about the Christmas blues. And 20 fun ways to get excited for Christmas. Because during Christmas everyone deserves to be happy.


Christmas Dip!

Christmas is a super exciting time and super busy.  On the other side, it is a season that totally shakes the normal daily rhythm. And it is also a super stressful time, at least in my opinion. For me personally, I’m glad when its over. This season my stress and anxiety levels are higher than normal. So I know that this crazy time also can trigger a more/intense mental health breakdown and just heightens any mental illness.
So what I like to do is to distract my mind from feeling down. During the Christmas season, there are also many people who feel down and lonely. I love during charity work during this time of a year.

15 Christmas tips

Now the more fun part. 20 things to do during the Christmas season, to add some more fun. Some of those things I have done myself.

  • Bake some cookies: Personally I have been baking special gingerbread cookies in christmas inspired chapes (christmas tree, star and more). And I baked more than 50 cookies, more about why that later. *wink*
  • spend time outside: Outside of the fact that even a small stroll is good for any mental illness. During this season if you are lucky there might be snow, so make some snowmen, snow angels, sliding down a hill.
  • Donate the toys you don’t need/want. There might be someone in need who doesn’t have the luxury to buy/get a present and it is a good excuse to clean the house and give to others.
  • volunteer: the cookies I baked was for a charity project. I had some of the cookies decorated by some young kids I know and gave the cookies to those who needed a little positive beam.
  • Listen to some Christmas songs and dance the night away,
  • Hold a Christmas treasure hunt (for family and friends): Instead of having the presents by a tree or stocking. You could hide it all over the place in the house and maybe have some clues in where to find the presents.
  • See a Christmas play.
  • Play a board game: You can do this at home. But Christmas is about giving, why not do it with some elderly people. You can do this in an elderly home or just with someone in your own street.
  • Thank you: Say thank you more often to those around you. Thank those that are close to you, your friends, family, loved ones.
  • Watch an old (home) video: tressure the moments of the past with those close to you.
  • Hot cholate milk bar: This is just something fun for friends and family.
  • Donate food: Here in the netherlands, we have something called foodbank for those in need. During the Christmas time, it is a good time to donate something extra to those who need it and might not have enough to celebrate Christmas. Here at home, we gave something extra for the food bank, so that they could also celebrate Christmas a little or at least feel the Christmas spirit.
  • Hold a Christmas cookie competition: Just something fun to trow. Ask everyone to make some cookies and have everyone vote on their favorite. And the one with the most point wins the one after second place.
  • Build a Christmas tree from plastic cups: I saw this idea on the internet to do with kids. And I must say it sounds like a fun idea.
  • Hold a wrapping gift party: Just have a good moment with friends/family while packing the Christmas presents. You might even learn some new wrapping stricks.

I think this blog is done XD. I don’t know any more ideas with creative things to do. So what do you think of my tips/ideas? Are you doing something similar?? Personally, I think Christmas is all about charity and giving. So that is what I personally love to do (all year round).

I want to wish you a happy and healthy Christmas and probably talk to you next year. So also a happy new year.


stress detox

Hello, This is my first blog written here. So let me introduce myself real quick. My name is Rosa-Lynn and I am an occupational therapy student. Also, I have a small blog myself PrettyRose. But once in a while, I will write a blog especially for you here. For me personally, December is the busiest month of the whole year and really really stress full. That doesn’t help my anxiety.

Without noticing it, tension can build up in your body. As a result less energy and many other symptoms. So I will share some tricks you can do at home to detox yourself from stress. Which often work for me.

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People often say you have to shake the emotion away as in forgetting it. But what if real shaking works? An American dr. David Bercili he developt the Tension Release Exercise. This is based on shaking your body.  So saying this, here is an exercise I do.

I lay down with my feet against each other and my knees up. Slowly drop my knees to the ground and back up and do this for a while. I notice that after some time almost my whole body starts shaking. I know this sounds weird but you have to try this yourself. And while you do this, try to relax.


A lot of tension is stored in a muscle in the back. A friend of mine thought me a simple trick to release tension in my back. For this, you need a bouncing ball, one that is a little bigger than the normal one.  You put the bouncing ball between your back and the back of a chair. Especially on the spot that feels tense/painful. You put a little pressure on the bouncing ball in a circular motion, don’t use too much pressure. Just enough to move the bouncing ball. While you do this your body will send more blood to that area and releases the tension.

Something else what you can do is give yourself a shoulder massage or ask a loved one to help you with this.


I always notice that when I am more stressed or my emotions are high my breaths get shorter. So something I have been doing for years is what I tell my 10 seconds rule. I close my eyes and count to 10 slowly. While I focus on my breathing and slow down my breathing. Some breathing tips:

  • In with the nose and out in the mouth.
  • As you breathe in your belly should rise. As you breathe out your belly should lower.
  • Try to take three full breaths.
  • Try to imagine that air around is giving you peace and calmness while you breathe.


Sleep is the most important thing for your body. It heals you mentally and physically. When I am stressed getting to sleep is a lot harder and staying asleep.

This is something I just started doing. I have an app called stretching on my phone and when I am more tensed I do a full body stretch of 15 minutes. Just to relax and put my focus on something else. This with instrumental music makes me sleep like a baby.

I hope those tips can help more people than just me. If you have any questions about any of the exercises feel free to leave a comment. And this won’t be the last you have heard from me.