Something came to mind as I began to write this blog post. Practice makes perfect. That for those who don’t know is a song from Cute is What We Aim For, a blast to my more emo days. It came up as I began making video content, something I am not totally comfortable with yet, but I am working on the goal!
I have realized that I have really gone inside myself to hide since my loss—the loss of my mother. I was always antisocial and an introvert, but I was still going out and doing things. With my loss and COVID-19, I have disconnected from most of the world. I don’t even write here as often as I want because there has been a real feeling of disconnect. As I am learning by giving myself permission to grieve (Shelby Forsythia), this has been one of my new identities that were once something I clung to–not connecting to the world. Even if it is just with writing.
I am relearning everything. How to live with loss and not hide from it as I have been for close to eight months. In fact, this post happens to land on what would have been my mom’s birthday. I realize that my life has been all about planning, but the actual doing is not something that I am fully committed to, especially when it comes to staying in the present. I recently got fantastic equipment to do video blogs and connect with clients, but it is still a struggle.
So, I thought why not take a chance? I want to meet the amazing people that follow my blog! I know not everyone is ready. I get it, but one or two people that want to connect I am always open. If you want to meet a fellow mental illness traveler, let us connect over Zoom, which is the great equalizer in these different times. I want to meet people so lets connect!
Always Keep Fighting
James
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I’m so sorry for your loss. Grief is so challenging, especially when paired with so many other factors like a pandemic. Stay strong, friend!
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It definitely can be, and I was not allowing myself to grieve which was really important for me to figure out. Thank you for reaching out and making my afternoon.
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It’s really hard letting all those feelings wash over us! Good for you for being willing to allow yourself to access these emotions. I hope this brings you some healing.
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I hope so as well. 😊
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I think connecting on zoom is wonderful idea. I would love to join 🙃
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I would love to get more people involved! When do you typically have time?
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Well I start my new job on In two weeks but I’m always available in the morning.
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I will let you know. Can you reach out on my email jamesedgarskye22@gmail.com that way I have a way to send you invites.
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I could get in on a group zoom, can’t deny I’d love to banter with a group i could learn to get comfortable with.
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When did you try? The group discord groups have been amazing and everyone that has joined has gotten used to it. I know it was not easy for me either.
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I haven’t tried but it sounds like something i might find beneficial.
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Take your time when it feels right. It might be beneficial. I can tell you there are some amazing people and there is a website that will be launching this week I believe for the group.
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Sorry for your loss James. I am immeasurably lucky to still have both of my parents and I never let that fact pass me by. Great post by the way!
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Thank you. I still have my dad and so I am doing what I can to make sure he stay around for as long as possible.
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