Life is Fragile — Handle With Care

It has almost been two and half years since my overdose. I have also been psychotropic medication free for most of that time. After I had a couple bad moments I thought maybe I needed medication. I began taking it a couple of times but never took it more than a few days. I sometimes think I need medication because that is what everyone tells us.
After a mental illness diagnosis they say you will need to take medication for the rest of your life. I have happily found that to be inaccurate. Today, I do far better without medications. There was a time I needed them but not as long as I took them and not in the way I was given them. Medications always made my symptoms worse but for many years they kept trying to find the right combinations of medications but nothing ever worked very long and instead eventually worsened my symptoms. I know most of you know and have played the Eeny Meeney Miney Moe game of psychotropic medications and sometimes I refer to it unfortunately as the Russian Roulette game of psychotropics.
I do not close the door to psychotropic medications because if something were to happen I would try them again if I needed. However, I will work hard to stay off of them because I never did well on medications. Plus, I feel sometimes we jump to them too quickly before trying other coping and recovery strategies first. Hindsight is 20/20.
My life is so much better today to the point that my recovery does not make any sense at all to medical professionals– or to me either really. I guess I always have to go back to my mantra that if there is no explanation it must be God. What else could it be? Or maybe it could be be the fact that treating mental illness is very difficult and everyone is different and there is so much they don’t know yet. So, we need to be the ones to teach them–by educating them.
I want to always share my story because I want to inspire hope so people know that you can overcome anything and everything. I did and you can to.
Tomorrow will be better. I promise it will be. That does not mean every day will be perfect and it will be this beautiful one time climb to wellness because that is not the journey most people’s lives ever take–those living with or without mental illness.
Life is not a smooth shiny ride and living with mental illness makes the ride even bumpier and in fact creates many potholes and road blocks along the way. But the greatest beauty and glory is the fact that you can get better. You will get better. Just keep fighting. Suicide is never the answer. I promise you it is not. I regrettably attempted more than once and all I can say is that…
I am so beyond happy and blessed to be alive. God saved my life many times. I’m like a cat with nine lives and more. I appreciate my life and know it is the greatest blessing and gift. Handle it with care.

“Shame is a soul eating emotion.” ~Carl Jung

Please check out my new memoir SHAME ATE MY SOUL. I realized how shame was instilled in me at a young age and was one of my biggest problems. I needed to give it back… and get rid of it and so I did. That was a huge part of my recovery and healing.
My book is available on Amazon
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Copyright © 2020 by Susan Walz of My Loud Whispers of Hope
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11 thoughts on “Life is Fragile — Handle With Care

  1. How wonderful to see how much has shifted for you. Also, your book👏
    I will have to check it out. Sounds like we had some similar threads in our story my friend. I have been on this healing journey since my own overdose 9 years now. In the past year it has become entirely more spiritual. A big, actually 2 big Awakenings have reunited me with my soul. This post made me smile. The journey continues. It’s a marathon and not a sprint. I was on meds for 15 yrs prior. Off now for 4. I take the completely holistic route.

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    • Awesome. Thank you for reading and sharing your thoughts. Your story sounds fascinating and interesting to me. I will definitely check out your blog. I have been so busy lately that I have not made enough time to read other blogs as much as I used to. I miss it. I like to hear about other people becoming psychotropic medication free. I feel it is important for us to get the word out that it is possible to be med. free and that meds are not always necessary for the duration of our lives. Take care, be well and stay safe. Much love, Sue


      • Right on sister, YES!! That’s one of the reasons why I write. I live my motto of “Triumphing over Trauma”. I like to say I have lived many lives in my 42 years. I appreciate the support and interest in my blog. We have a great lil community here on WordPress of mental health advocates. Sharing my own story and overcoming obstacles is what keeps me connected to healing. It can and is done in a much more gentle way then most would think having to deal with the system here. Much love and many blessings to you🥰🙌

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