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This morning, I am sitting on the couch with one cat on each side of me. Both are stretched out and resembling potatoes (they are orange tabbies). Every so often my girl cat, Charlee Mae, will lift her head, turn it around and meow at me. I haven’t a clue why. Is my typing too loud, did I move and disrupt her comfort, is she letting me know that her senior spine is aching? The other one, Hunter Mahoney, jumps each time I sneeze or cough (I have a lovely winter cold presently). I am guessing that I scare him or that he just doesn’t want to be around me for fear of getting sick. However, I love having them close to me. I love when they “talk” to me, I love this “quality time” that I get to spend with them on this beautiful February morning. I love that I am able to take some time and be still. Be in the moment. Not being in a rush to be in a place by a certain time, or crunching to make a deadline for a project. Just simple, calm, light bluish energy swirling around me.
On the flip side, so much has been happening in my world recently. You know life stuff. Busy days at work, evenings at home that are just not long enough. Going here and there, grocery shopping, vet visits. When you pile it all up, it’s a mountain of responsibility, but, as I continue to remind myself, it is life.
Life is ups and downs. It’s the good days mixed with the bad days. It’s getting sick, it’s having set-backs, and disagreements. And then there’s the being scared, worried and sad. Life.
Part of my life is working with a non-profit organization, where I teach craft classes. At the end of the month I am teaching a family craft class. We will be decorating clay pots with a mosaic design created by tissue paper pieces and modge podge. When dry, we will use potting soil to plant a live succulent in the decorated pot. This idea is based on the inspiration that I received about what life is: to me life is a mosaic. We take bits and pieces in assorted sizes, shapes and colors and we put them together to make something beautiful, unique and breathtaking.
I am learning and working hard to embody life. To treasure it and not challenge it. I have challenged myself to be in the present moment and just be, not to be thinking about anything more or how it could be better, but just be. Although I have not been able to do this much, I am still working on it and the more I practice the stronger my “muscles” get, and the more capable I am of just being.
I want for you to have the ability to be. To be in a place where there can be noise and hecticness, but that you have an inner peace that restores your soul. That when needed, you can stop, breathe, and get to a place that brings you a calming nature within your mind and body.
Life will always be life, but it’s up to us to decide how we are going to live it.
~Bella
The Bipolar Writer Mental Health Blog 
The seeds are there. You’re now conscious of the desire to master living in the moment. In a sense there’s been an awakening with it’s own consciousness which, in my experience, will quicken in you when it’s time. When it’s needed.
For me that knowledge is sort of primal and quietly ubiquitous. So, when I catch myself “judging” that thing kicks in and reminds me to focus and let go.
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thank you so much for sharing… i do feel like I have had an awakening, there is some peace in my mind and body, i still have struggles, but some of the things that were an issue in the past are just nuisances now.
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I’d say that’s real progress..🙂
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