What is Success?

Worrying has been a part of my life for as long as I can remember. I’ve worried about everything under the sun at one time or another.

My current worry is, am I/will I ever be successful?

I reflect on my career and finances primarily and debate with myself whether they’re successful enough.

I’ve always said that if I write for a living and am making a difference with my writing, I will be happy. For 2 years I have done that for a non-profit organization telling stories and encouraging others to donate. But I don’t make as much money as I would like. Does that make my job unsuccessful?

Because I don’t make a lot of money, it holds me back financially. I live at home with my mom because I spend almost half of my bi-weekly paychecks on student loans. I look at my bank account and shake my head because I always wish I had a few more dollars in there. Does that make me a failure?

I feel like I’m nowhere near being a success person because of my financial situation. I feel like I have failed at life.

My depression loves to play these thoughts on repeat. My mind tells me I will never amount to anything, that any dream I have will never become a reality because I am destined to fail.

I dream of writing a non-fiction book, of having a story published in a popular publication, of getting married, traveling the world and somehow paying off my student loans.

Those goals seem so unattainable that it discourages me from trying.

Next month I find out if I am getting a raise which I really, really want. If I my pay remains stagnant, I will find a new job. If I get the raise, I’ll stay on for longer. So we shall see what happens on the career front this summer!

How do you define success? Do you feel successful in your life?

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12 thoughts on “What is Success?

  1. I’ve gone from having a fairly good idea of what my own idea of success would look like, to now preferring not to even think about it. I’ll do whatever I can do, and that can be success enough for me.


  2. A buddhist philosopher once said that ‘isn’t it true that people are defeated by their own internal negativity long before they are defeated by outside circumstances?’. These negative voices are stopping you from trying and if you don’t try how do you know? Make a start on your writing today. Maybe leave the famous publication for a bit – there are lots of good internet sites and smaller publications looking for stories. Get some confidence. Make a start. Do it today.


  3. It is so easy for us to shoot ourselves in the foot. For one thing it is difficult to define success. It is an intangible thing. Our culture has skewed our perception. Don’t say I can’t say I can and will do what brings satisfaction, even if just a little, each day


    • True success is difficult to define, it’s unique to every individual. I love the name of your blog! Worrying less would be so peaceful. Thank you for the comment!


  4. I think, for many of us, just living with and overcoming this disorder is a measure of success. Just take it one day at a time. That’s what I do. I pray that you find happiness and fulfillment in your job and all that you do.


    • You’re absolutely right, Kevin! Some days feel more successful than others but now that you have me thinking I definitely feel successful in my mental illness journey. I have come so far! Thank you for your words of wisdom!


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