I became insane, with long intervals of horrible sanity. – Edgar Allan Poe
Late Sunday night I began the same ritual before I got into bed (one of many rituals in my life) which consisted of refilling my medication. I was feeling a bit blue while refilling my meds. I had missed a couple of days of medication, and I have worried that the past few weeks of cycling between mania and depression has something to do with my missing medication. It is always a way to skip your pills. It keeps you from entirely taking advantage of what the medications are supposed to do.
This has become a more occurring theme since being diagnosed with Bipolar one.
My most important and often missed medications are my lithium. Since the beginning of my diagnosis, I have hated this medication. One of my psychiatrists told me it’s the most researched psych med out there, and it will help me find balance. I have been on really high doses and low doses. What I hate the most is the side effects like always being thirsty and the uncontrollable shaking of my hands. Now I am staring down an increase in my lithium to try and refocus my recent mania back to center.
Part of the issue is over the course of the past almost eleven years I have had a lot of increases in medication and then for health reasons more were added to my daily cocktail of meds. Eventually, it becomes a very tedious task to remember that you have to take your medication throughout the day and week.
I have tried everything to keep my medication on track. I bought a pill holder that breaks down by day and specific times of that day. Each day has four slots, and I have at least one spot for medication in each that I have to take throughout my day.
I found an app that reminds me of each pill session, but even that at times I see the notification and still miss a dose. I know there are the medications I can’t live without, my Ativan and Seroquel. I always find myself struggling to take all my medication as prescribed.
Do any of my fellow bloggers struggle daily with this issue? What are some techniques that you use to make sure that you always take your medication?
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Always Keep Fighting