Day One

With my struggles recently I wanted to post this blog post that I wrote just after I completed my ten-year anniversary since my first suicide and diagnosis in November of last year. At the time I was only a few months into The Bipolar Writer blog. Looking at this post makes me realize I have come so far in year one. I will always keep fighting.

Day One – A Start of a New Journey 11/17

Its day one of a new journey, and its time to look towards the future.

The time has passed. I hit my ten-year mark and the only looking back I will be doing is when writing my memoir. It was a wonder to finally get to this point. My past is in the rearview mirror, and I am here for the present. My future isn’t written yet and so I am making it a point to live in the moment.

Depression, anxiety, insomnia, and even my mania is still a part of me, but I what I have learned in the past few months is that writing about what is bothering me, is the most therapeutic thing in the world. Even with my future unwritten, I want to talk about what I am looking forward to as we move towards the end of 2017 and beyond.

I am really looking forward to completing a major project, my memoir. I talk about it all the time and I am working around the clock to finish the first draft by the end of the year. It may happen, and it may take longer, but I am hopeful while at the same time not worrying about the part of this that is out of my control. Things happen and while there is always a need to finish, it is best to stay within who I am as a writer.

I am also looking forward to completing the novel version of my screenplay Memory of Shane. It was such a process to write the screenplay and it was grandiose of me to think I could write the novel version right after its completion. I was too close the project because it has been a major part of the last year and a half, but after few weeks I became burnt out rewriting a story that I know all too well. So I am hoping my April of next year I can be ready to pick the project back up, maybe sooner if the timing is right.

Speaking of my screenplay, I am excited to be entering full-length screenplay for the BEA Festival of Media Arts student screenwriting competition. It would be amazing to win this competition, but it will help to just get my screenplay out there in the world. There are a couple of end of the year screenplay competitions that I will be entering to end my year. I am really excited about the opportunity that my school is partnered with BEA.

Then there is my blog. What an unexpected journey it has been to grow my brand as The Bipolar Writer. It is great to connect with real people in the mental health community. I getting ready to expand my blog by interviewing others like me. I think it will help me hone my feature writing skills that have come with minoring in journalism.

My thinking is twofold for this blog, interviewing other bloggers to help showcase their own experience and their blog, and also having guest writers on my blog. Its a scary thing for me, but I have already had people ask me to help them tell their story and to showcase their blog. I am most excited about this project because there is so much we can learn through the experiences of others. I am thinking once my blog hits 2,000 followers would be the best time to make this idea reality.

I am also happy to be nearing the end of my educational journey. It has never been easy but somehow I get through every semester given that depression, anxiety, and insomnia take their turns making my life difficult. Through it all, I have become stronger, and I have honed my writing skills through education. It is one of the reasons my writing has improved over the last few years.

I am excited about​ what is coming and where my writing will take me in the coming months and into the new year.

What are you looking forward to as we approach the new year? Let me know in the comments below!

J.E. Skye

Photo Credit: Octavian Rosca

24 thoughts on “Day One

  1. I have complete faith in you to succeed in your memoir. I know that is a dream of mine to start writing mine.
    I just finished writing a prompt piece, and it was hard to look backward, but that is the only way for me to look at the future. You are my inspiration to do just that, start working on my own. Thank you.

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  2. Keep doing what you’re doing!

    I’m hoping to get at least 2 short stories published in print or online literary journals/magazines in the coming year, though I’d be happy with publishing just 1! I also plan to polish some of the other stories in my portfolio so they’re ready for submitting by the end of next year.

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  3. I think it’s a great goal to finish your memoir by the end of the year. I have faith that you will achieve it! But if you don’t, remember not to give yourself a hard time. My chronic illness often prevents me from reaching my goals with my filmmaking and writing. All too often I leave projects unfinished because I’m too sick or life gets in the way. Even writing my blog takes a lot of planning, just in case I’m sick one of the days I need to post something. I got some advice at the beginning of the year which was insanely helpful to me, “Do what you can, as long as you are making a bit of progress, it’s good enough.” I hope that helps in some way.

    I’m looking forward to moving into my new flat with my partner and finally being able to live with my cat, Alistair (instead of him being looked after by friends). I’m also looking forward to continuing to write on my blog. Before the end of the year, it all has to be small goals for me, as I find out what’s happening with my chronic illness, and whether it’s turned into something worse soon. The biggest thing I’m looking forward to, to be honest, is answers about what’s happening to me.

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    • It does help me so much. It’s great even with all your illnesses that you have positives to look forward to in your life. As long as I have known you, it has become clear how amazing of a person that you are, so I wish you luck in All things.


  4. It’s great that you’d found writing to be therapeutic, because it is, it’s a way for us, to introspect about our lives, and see how interactions with everything outside of us, so keep on writing, and maybe, you will be “cured” of your bipolar, like i’d already become too…

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  5. I am so glad you have found writing to help you cope with everything. I have turned to writing recently and I have learned to love it. Especially after trying many ways to cope with my own mental illness. I think it is amazing that you have gotten through every semester. I know dealing with a mental illness while trying to maintain great grades can get to us real bad but just know it is such a great achievement that you can come so far! I hope all goes well!! You’re doing great

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  6. I’m glad you have so many aspirations! You have a lot going on, but writing is all good! And really, it’s one of the most therapeutic things I’ve found myself doing. Getting everything out there is hard, but worth it. I wish you the best of luck with reaching all of your goals! And good luck with the screen writing competition!

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