How Did I Get Here?

10 years. It still hasn’t sunk in.

To the start of another ten-year journey.

Today marks my official anniversary date of my first time attempting suicide. It feels so surreal. My journey over the past ten years was the lowest darkest lows and some of the strangest highs. I have tested the limits of who I am as an individual and a human being.

I have loved.
I have lost.

I have fought a great war, and while I have lost many battles along the way, I can say it feels great to just be alive. Sure, it isn’t always fun being in my own skin. Just today my so anxiety is at high levels, but I combat these feelings by leaving my comfort zone and writing in my favorite coffee spot.

I wish those of you who follow my blog could have been with me on the entire journey of the last ten years, but I making up the lost time with my blog and my memoir. I feel really sentimental in this moment. I say this all the time, but I really never thought that I would ever reach such a huge milestone in my life.

This is it. The beginning of a new chapter in my life. In this moment I have found the understanding that there was always something at work in my life, and it is why no matter how hard I tried, I was meant to be here. As I continue to reflect on the past ten years it will be to understand enough of the past to make my memoir something great.

“The Bipolar Writer” was born out of the need to be “James the Writer” and the fact that “my diagnosis will always be a part of me.” I decided today to cherish every day for the next ten years because at the end of this new journey I will be a better person.

Thank you for every follower of my blog that brightens up my every day with comments, praises, and their stories. It means the world to me.

Always keep fighting.

James Edgar Skye

Photo Credit: Aneta Ivanova

28 thoughts on “How Did I Get Here?

  1. Congratulations!! It is hard to stay afloat and keep pushing but just know you are not alone. Stay connected to yourself and if you ever come across hard times reach out to someone. I have been diagnosed with Bipolar I and it is the most frustrating thing for me everyday.

    I am in the same boat with needing help purchasing better equipment for my writing life and it is not easy. I will share your post and I hope you get the support you need.

    Good luck!

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    • Thank you for your kind words. It isn’t easy and I have never been the type to ask for help. I am doing some freelance work and I am finishing my degree. Not to mention keeping up on my blog. So it has been tough to save up for a big purchase. It is greatly appreciated that you are sharing my post. If you ever need anyone to talk to, I am here to talk always.

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  2. This brings a tear to my eye, to have survived that incredibly dark place, and turned your experience into something that helps others (as well as helping you) is totally incredible. I am so happy for you, but I’m also really happy for me that I found your blog. It’s truly inspirational, particularly at the moment with my physical health getting worse. It’s easy for my mental health to take a big dive at the same time, but your blog reminds me why I write and why it’s always worth fighting against the darkness. Thank you.

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    • It really has been an honor to get to know you all this time within the confines of my blog. Writing is out greatest strength against the struggles of mental health. Thank you for always being here for me. It means the world the friendship that has grown between us.

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      • Thank you! I feel the same. I’m so lucky to have found this blog and been able to talk to you and become friends. It’s pretty amazing what writing can do! Thank you for always taking the time to reply and reading my rant-y comment novels. 🙂

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  3. Anniversaries are so important. You are growing all the time and helping others by sharing so honestly from your experience. In my opinion that helps more than all the therapy in the world. For what you have experienced is both unique and also shared by others. I am so glad you are on this earth still.

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